delivered

Soul deep and everlasting, 50cm x 50cm, oil on board, 2012

Final touches, varnishing, screwing in D rings and writing an artist statement.

So much easier to screw these things in with a drill – I always did it by hand before.  What was I THINKING!

The Guardians, 92cm x 92cm, oil on linen, 2012

Agonising over if it all works together.  Working on a new website – will let you know when it’s done.

Silent passing, 50cm x 50cm, oil on board, 2012

Feeling freer working than I have in years and being able to just relax and enjoy it instead of having a tension headache for weeks in advance and worrying if people will think it’s no good.

There’s gold in the fountain of life, 50cm x 50cm, oil on board, 2012

Delivering works to 775 for this exhibition which opens this weekend!!!!!!

Not all works are up on the 775 website soon, but they will be.

And a well-deserved hot chocolate and amazing rasberry and dark chocolate brownie before….. the drive.

An agonising ALL DAY DRIVE to and from Flinders (should have been an hour each way) – because of the bastards in charge of traffic control.  WHO in their right mind I ask you, would close off the road from Frankston to Melbourne for roadworks on the same day an Iron man event was being staged on Beach rd.  A situation that meant it was IMPOSSIBLE to easily get back to Melbourne.  Thank God for the GPS.  We snaked through back streets and alleys, turned up and down endless courts and dead-ends and got home snakey and frustrated by the amount of time and idling needed to move forward metres.  It was like someone drew a finger through a line of ants – there were no detours marked – just a ‘find alt route’ sign, and everyone was lost….

775 is a lovely gallery in Flinders – a beautiful part of the Mornington Peninsula.  Close to the Ashcombe Maze and full of great cafes and wineries.  Well worth the drive in the Easter Holidays if you feel like seeing rolling hills and having a frolic on the sand.  I could so live there one day……..


Finito!

So the kitchen was finished, and we waited for the splashback.

We had looked at the samples and thought the natural glass was nicer than the white glass.  We had discussed colours and thought – considering the kitchen is 2 tone, it was better to stick with something that was more subtle, but when it went in – it wasn’t subtle.

And the splashback arrived and I thought -  Erk!  It’s green!!!!

Not just a slight tint, but a full on ice-blue green.  I’d forgotten what happens in corners – where light plays strange tricks and intensifies colour in shadows – me the colour nut – who analyses shadows to inform my painting – forgot that.

It was a shock to me – though it must be said that Daniel instantly loved it.  I really felt something was needed to tie it all together….

Luckily we had ordered a red blind a few months ago to brighten our previously bland kitchen and to echo our red stools and red toaster.  When I ordered it the sales-bloke told me he had never done one in red.  ‘Are you sure?’ – he asked.  And we went back and forth a few times with him saying it was a brave choice and me cheerfully confirming that was why it was going to be so good.

And I worried after the ordering that it might perhaps have been a bad choice.  And it arrived and went up, and we both went.  Um – maybe white would have been better…..

So it went into a cupboard and I slapped myself on the forehead for being not considered enough.  It’s hard to be brave and considered – you never know what anything is going to look like on a grand scale until it’s in, which is why most people are so conservative I guess.

It was a thrill then, to discover that the ‘too red’ blind was a perfect tie in for the kitchen.  It does – I feel make it, and bring it all together in the most unexpected way.  The red, plays nicely with the ice-blue green and adds a warmth to the cold colour scheme that was lacking.

When the room is lit up at night it looks warm and inviting – it’s a beautiful space to work in, and we are so very happy with the look and feel of it, and the way it all works together.  It’s so nice to be home and it gets more like home every day.

Hard to believe we’ve only been in for 5 months….


sweep

Bridging time and space. 2012.  50cm x 50cm oil on board

With only a few weeks before I need to deliver works for my show, I’m painting like mad.  On nights, and weekends……

Reflecting on the good brings double happiness.  2012.  50cm x 50cm.  Oil on Board.

When I’m not actually painting, painting is in my head constantly, and I’d almost forgotten how exhausting that is.  Constantly looking at everything and analysing what it is about that vista that is singing to you.  What it is at the very core and essence that is the special thing to capture.  What is it that the soul needs to hold dear.

Waterlily Twilight.  21012, 50cm x 50cm oil on board.

I am (for the most part) using reference photos, but not in the traditional sense.  While the photo itself is the key to the painting, the shapes might not be recognisable.  What was the shadow of a tree cast onto the water has become a focus point of its own – a window to the depths rather than a mirror of a height.  It’s a bit of fun that – and a delicious mental twist on looking and translating what one sees.

 

We build paper boats.  2012.  95cm x 95cm oil on linen.

Anyone can make a mark – but it’s what we see, how we see it and what we communicate about what we see that makes a work interesting in my view.  That’s what I find so fascinating about kids art and why I find it so sad when they start making expected marks and shapes instead of their view of it.

The observation deck.  2012, 100cm x 120cm oil on linen.

I’m looking at everything at the moment – capturing moments, and exploring the shapes within those moments.  Expanding a second into hours.

I’d like some more hours….

 

 


cupboards I have known

Contents of the pantry – you know – I don’t think I could make a meal out of all of this – it’s mostly condiments of some kind or other.

When I first moved out of home the idea of cooking myself a meal was the furthest thing from my mind.  My first meal was – I’m proud to admit an entire family block of chocolate purchased from the servo across the road.

It was good.

And scarfed in front of the TV in a house I shared with a flatmate I’d never met before agreeing to move in and help pay the rent.  The second night was not so satisfying, and while I still like chocolate I’ve never been able to consume that amount again.  A few tiny pieces and I’m done.

Our kitchen was tiny, not very well stocked and my diet consisted in those early & broke days of defrosted dim sims, 2 minute noodles, a tomato based vegetarian stew full of capsicum, onions and a lot of salt, or a variation of all 3.  Noodles with chopped up dim sims and tomato stew.  Tomato stew watered down and flavoured with noodle seasoning.  Dim Sims in Noodle broth…. You get the picture.  It’s a miracle I survived really.  I was certainly thinner then.

The kitchen at our house – about to be ripped out. An 80′s  symphony in cream.

My mother was always a great cook, she was generous with her skills and I always did love cooking, but it wasn’t my kitchen, it was a shared one, and in the series of share houses that followed – furtive moments in an available space did not make for a great cooking (or eating) experiences.  You need to inhabit a kitchen to unfurl in it.  You can’t experiment or spend hours stirring in a share house.

When I got my own kitchen it was a thrill.  Moving stuff into empty cupboards.  Being able to put things in the fridge that stayed there – or were eaten by a loved one (instead of some house-mate’s friend who was foraging), and being able to take time to bake and fill the house with smells that could be savoured later instead of pounced on by people who were slowly driving you mad…. and who you might secretly like to give food-poisoning to.

There have been many kitchens.  Aside from share-houses (and there were a few of those), I can count seven kitchens that have actually been my own.  Seven spaces that have challenged, delighted or brought me to my knees in one way or another.  I think the one in the house before this one was the worst.  Tiny.  No bench space, a sink with a negative camber that held water turning putrid before your very eyes.  Mice in the cupboards that returned and returned.  The MOST inefficient electric cooktop in existence.  The slowest and smallest oven there ever was.  Ever.  And the knowledge that there were rats lurking somewhere waiting for us to go to bed.  Hideous.  It’s a good thing I was so optimistic and rabidly in love or it would have driven me to distraction.

The kitchen space – after the kitchen was removed.  See our white painted floorboards?  We like those….  The mat covers holes going right through to the ground below – which must have been fun for rats – we found quite a few droppings.  They couldn’t get in, but must have rested under the cupboard.  It’s now completely blocked off..

When we moved into our own new home we thought we would keep this kitchen.  It wasn’t so bad.  In fact the oven (though old) was a masterpiece of brilliance.  Fast warming, accurate, and brilliantly fan forced.  Things cooked quickly and well.  But it was at shoulder height – which made getting a roast out more than a bit dangerous.  And the benchtop – while solid, was higher than average, which made kneading dough much too difficult for a shorty like me.  Also, there was no dishwasher – or rather there was, but it didn’t work at all – a fact the real estate agent helpfully didn’t point out to us.

So we discussed a new kitchen.  How exciting!  And in the space of an hour with one consultant had placed an order for something that promised to be much more ergonomic and functional.  Ikea was a bit too hard to get our heads around and this seemed like a great and reasonably priced option.  We move fast.

NO visiting dozens of showrooms, discussing the pros and cons of various layouts and building materials.  NO repeat visits from consultants to nut out various concerns, make changes or stress over colour choices and bench choices.

The bottom-half of the kitchen going in – no bench top yet, and the wall to the laundry is yet to be filled.

And after a few delays they started – one day to rip out. And two days to install – because nothing is straight in our house – walls, floor, ceiling all wonky.  It was in.

In and BEAUTIFUL!

Oscar has been inspecting every inch of the kitchen. Constantly.  Not sure if he is impressed but he is grateful all the noise has stopped.

Our cupboards are very dark on the bottom and quite light on the top.  And we are still figuring out where everything goes, but loving it.  And loving having a space that feels like the perfect size, with enough room to grow, but not so much room that we can afford to be lazy with possessions or too many condiments.

Softclose doors and drawers

I’ll wait until the splashback is in place before showing you the final kitchen, but so far we are happy.  So happy, and enjoying the effortlessness of this new space and appliances that do what they are supposed to well while looking good too.

Worth the money.  every cent.


remote

There are many things that bind us – as people to those around us.  They might be as simple as a smile from a neighbour on a walk down the street or a sunny comment from somebody on a tram.  Even the opportunity to go out of your way to be nice to someone who is obviously having a very bad day can make your whole week seem better.

Not that I’m having a bad time – I’m so NOT.  Everything is dreamy, relaxed and cruisy – well as cruisy as it can be when a new kitchen is about to be installed.  I’ll save that for another day….

One of the things I LOVE to do (which is still very new to me) is to go to craft camp – and immerse myself in the meal-sharing, skill-sharing, laughter and companionship that is guaranteed to come with a sew-fest in the company of lovely ladies with a similar outlook.

I couldn’t go to craft camp last weekend, and I wasn’t alone, so a few of us decided to go to remote craft camp and make something this weekend anyway, which was brilliant, and a really nice to way to expand the boundaries of the physical space that was occupied an hour or so away.   It was also nice to give myself permission to make something in an afternoon without worrying about the other things that should have been done – like painting, clearing out kitchen cupboards and making order in the studio.

I made this, out of linen – which was $4 a metre from Darn Cheap, and a collar which was $6.  Total cost was under $20 and thoroughly relaxing and fun on a very, very hot afternoon.  Bonuses included; no driving required and a man and a cat to cuddle up to overnight.

But I am looking forward to going to the next one….

And as an aside, I have to mention that I saw a story on this on TV last week and thought it was bloody brilliant.  Men need more things like this I think, especially when they finish work and perhaps don’t have so many people to speak to day to day.  It’s a wonderful initiative.  Men’s Shed Australia.  Community, company, inspiration and the opportunity to help.  Magic.


Body building

Parked, 90cm x 90cm, oil on linen.  2012

I’d like to say that the studio is all tidy – with enough space to lay works out, contemplate, breathe freely, invite company and sit and think, but it isn’t.

What it is though – is fertile.

Only so deep, 30cm x 30cm, oil on board, 2012

It’s impossible to predict how a space will affect you – the most well laid out studio, with plenty of light and air and a big fat lock on the door, can prove totally uninspiring.  For some reason, I need distance from loved ones, but to feel connected.  I need a bit of discomfort, a bit of muddle and tinny music (not grand acoustics) to make my soul travel.

We have painted the outside, but not the inside.  Indeed the space is still filled with furniture that we have to get rid of, boxes that need to be sorted, bikes that need a home, and a good fumigation because there’s evidence of spiders galore tucked away.  They are doing their bit I know, but I’m not sure I want a huntsman crawling up my leg when I’m doing some fine work and in the zone.  I would like the spiders gone.

The rushes 1, 2012

30cm x 30cm Oil on board.

The adrenalin is flowing.  I have weeks to prepare for the show at 775, and ideas bumping around my head day and night.  I’m getting out there as much as I can and enjoying the heady fumes, fresh air and stairs up to the house for a cool drink of water.

The rushes 2, 2012

90cm x 90cm, oil on linen

For some bizarre reason, there is a muse in the mess.  A vein of inspiration and the freedom to make and leave it set up for the next session.  A freedom I haven’t had for a few years now.  I finally have that feeling back that I need to paint.  Not should, or might enjoy it – NEED.  Powerfully need.   So loving that!

And the secondary theme that works for me for this body of work – a push over to more abstractive works.  There will be a balance between literal and abstraction, with a lot of patterning and more vibrant colours.  I’m thinking they will be hung side by side as a kind of window into each other.

I think it works.  Hope you do too.


Shout it out.

We got married!

Last Saturday; we dressed up, threw some flowers together, scoffed breakfast, piled into the car, drove into the city and pronounced our commitment to each other in front of the kids, our lovely photographer and a construction worker off the street who was kind enough to be our witness.

It was FABULOUS!

We didn’t want any nerves, anxiety about other people’s expectations,  worrying about everything going smoothly, or public declarations – followed by hours of congratulations and food that you can’t quite get to for chatting to loved ones and dear friends.  Or speeches.  We didn’t want the emotional exhaustion that follows and can take the shine off what it’s all about.

*A cake with a story

We wanted to quietly escape as a family, and bind ourselves thoroughly in a quiet, meaningful and funny ceremony that would be special for the kids as well as us, and leave us to go forth into our lives freely from there.

We got married in a ceremony that was minutes long, with Fabienne Delsol in the background.  We mixed up our vows.  We did the wrong things with the rings.  We laughed and exchanged funny glances with the kids – who were grinning harder than I have ever seen them.  It was better than Christmas, or birthdays, or anything.

Afterwards we went out for brunch at the cafe we always go to – and kept our secret, and went out for a quiet dinner – just my husband and me for french food.

It was perfect – and funny and uplifting.  Just like our relationship, and it has been quite overwhelming to see how happy people have been for us.  A lovely way to go forward together!

I have to say, from the bottom of my heart – I am so lucky to have met (and married) this man.  He is deeply caring, sensitive and so creative.  He is so smart.  So funny, and has such integrity.  He is absolutely my soulmate.  He is absolutely my best friend and is the most amazing parent – endlessly entertaining, insightful and committed with every fibre of his body.  He is a rock.   He’s also pretty handsome, can undo a stuck jar with ease and reach high things without a ladder.  He smells nice.  And, he makes me feel like I’m pretty fabulous on a daily basis.  I am impossibly happy and am steadily building up wrinkles from smiling so much.  I never thought I could ever be so happy. :)

Enough sugar for you?  Happy Valentines day my love – you are pure sunshine. xx

___________

* We were having our floor sanded – and the day that most of the work was going to need to happen was on Saturday – our wedding day.  I’m sure my face fell when the lovely sander told me that, and I confessed – that I’d told nobody, but we were secretly running off to elope on that day.  He joked that his wife was a cake-maker and they’d make us a cake.  And she did!  I think it’s the best cake I’ve ever tasted – Bailey’s soaked chocolate cake with a Lindt chocolate ganache – given with extraordinary kindness and being thoroughly enjoyed.  Thank you so much Lisa, Clint and family.  :)


the secret to happiness

The secret to happiness is, I suspect, just learning to roll with it – whatever it is.

Our crop of tomatoes has been seriously underwhelming.  But when they come – these little ones – they are the sweetest treasure – savoured, not gobbled and the sweeter for their rarity.  Makes you look at them in a whole different light.

We have an arid spot down the side of the house – dry and hot.  I planted Thyme – which we cook with a lot, and it’s doing sensationally well.

An ebay purchase – in anticipation of moving in and enjoying dinners under the shady tree.  I don’t think we’ve managed a full meal out there yet – but it gives us pleasure just looking at it.

A Gingko tree – planted a few weeks ago and having trouble settling in.  Perhaps I’ve planted it too out in the open?  I’m feeding it like crazy.  I think it’s going to get there  It’s lovely helping it and seeing some recovery going on.  When it gets big, the sense of achievement will be triple-fold I’m sure.

The studio – still waiting for finishing touches and to be emptied – but I’ve done some brush wielding in there and I know it’s going to be sensational.  :)

And the floor.

Trying to see the happy in this floor……

The extension to our house which comprises an open-plan kitchen and family room was covered with ironbark ‘floating’ flooring. Only it wasn’t floating.  And when we tried to take some of it up it shattered and splintered – holding fast to the adhesive that gripped it tight.  There are secret nails.  There is a giant mess in one section.

There will be an expert coming today to tackle the job.  And we had planned he would take it all up – the entire thing, but after a discussion with a neighbour who has helped on most of the work in our house, it seems that there is at least half of the floor – and probably some patching that would be structure-board (a type of very strong flooring chipboard), which will be in large flat patches, and not be consistent.  Sigh.  There may even be holes…. Crikey.

So we think we’ll be getting our floor man to take up the front half of the house – to make it all beautiful.  And ask him to sand the back ready for painting, and paint it all a uniform white. Which will be Ok I suppose – not the original plan, but then the best houses are slightly kooky in some way or other right?  Wabi Sabi.  Right?

Wabi Sabi is the way to happy.  It is.  I really think it is – the patina, the act of rolling with whatever comes, making it good, or finding the happy in the chip and it’s repair.

And on we roll……


paint

It’s all about the paint lately.

Painting Floors.

And walls.

And preparing for a show in late March with this gallery.

Which has been on my mind for some time.  I’m thinking “Body of water” – because everything in my life seems to be fluidly running in the right direction, which is blissful and lovely. So I’m ramping myself up slowly – resisting the urge to paint more walls and focusing on the art for a little bit and after a morning of underpainting in our Dining Room (Studio is still unfinished) I couldn’t be happier.

Though I can’t wait for the studio to be in order too (just quietly).


white

It’s evolving – this space of ours.  Some rooms have been more of a challenge than others. In progress -  things have moved in/moved out – been considered and worried over.  Floor plans fiddled with, lights installed.

It’s fun.

This is how our front room looked when we bought it.

I don’t know if you can see that fireplace well enough in the middle of the room.  With everything lit up the room can make your eyes water – 2 sets of downlights plus a central light with 3 globes made a room that was probably excellent for jigsaw puzzles but not so relaxing for weary eyes.  How superb was that lounge suite though – it was a wedding gift and the owners didn’t want to part with it.  Fair enough – I wouldn’t have either.
We have discovered buttery cream can be irritating to live with.  And we don’t like carpet much – it holds every smell.  Also, the fireplace had an elaborate pine mantle that wasn’t to our taste.  Bare – it’s a challenging room that looks out to a front car-port, not such a lovely view and the windows are aluminium.  *sigh*.
First off, we installed a full-wall bookshelf – floor to ceiling – and we couldn’t have been happier than that.  It’s so relaxing to know that we actually have space for more books than we have – and we can collect guilt-free for a while yet. :)
Then we painted hacked off most of the mantle decoration (architrave we suspect) that hung underneath the mantle – it was stuck on with liquid nails, so there was much chiseling and crowbar wielding, mallet swinging and a bit of swearing.  We also removed some pine that flanked the fireplace – and realised when that was off that there was a huge cavity behind the wall – lordy.    The cavity was filled with some amazing foam in a can that was sticky and puffy and able to be cut afterwards to a fairly flat surface – just don’t look too close if you come over eh…
The fireplace was painted – and so were the walls.
And we were pretty much happy with ourselves but not happy with the floor – the main problem being that there is a river of “floating floorboards” that runs through the hall and out to the back.  They are shiny and quite a lovely colour but in need of a sand-back and re-polish, there are areas that are peeling, and we knew that there were probably some fairly decent boards under there that were hiding.
We wondered whether to repair and do floating floorboards in the other downstairs areas?  Rip up the carpeted areas and polish the boards, or replace the carpet.
Or… paint the boards white.
The Carpet – circa 1978 – mysterious large  stain in centre right.
Floorboards – beautiful boards in need of some attention – a fair smattering of staples and a dark cherry stain on the edges which was worn at the entry.  They would have come up well polished – but that’s beyond our current budget.
First coat – hearts in mouths I tell you – it’s one thing to see it in a photo – another to actually do it to some beautiful floorboards yourself.
Last little window
Finished – the view from the doorway.
We still have to hang paintings and will move things around but I have to say – having a white room is a fantastic thing – it’s so calm and peaceful and we have all been drawn in to just sit and enjoy the space when it’s quiet – and to put a record on and make it not so.
There will be more white rooms to come – we are hooked.

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